do any of you guys use dailybooth?!

http://dailybooth.com/allegra0

friend me if you do! i'm planning on taking at least one picture a day.

with any luck this won't turn out like my project 365 did a year ago, where i updated for a week and then just stopped completely. i dunno, i think this will work out better, since i don't have to manually upload and post the pics. i'm lazy, whatever :P


i have to write three 10+ page term papers this semester, plus a bunch of other 5-6 pagers throughout, and 2 pagers at least once a week. no big... :|

i got straight As last semester, so i'm not terribly concerned. good practice for grad school and all that.

heh. grad school. i need to like...actually start applying. oh boy.

i'm happy he and i are friends. really. we spent the whole basketball game on monday night catching up on each other's lives after not really speaking for a month and a half. it was pleasant, chatting, laughing, making jokes about the game. everything comes naturally for us. we know each other so well, and i couldn't be happier to have someone who i can talk to about anything.

but sometimes, the reality of it all kicks me in the ass. like at the game last night. this is the boy who said he loved me more than anything in the world. who promised to be committed to me. who said that no matter what happened to us, he would still care about me. and sometimes, it's like we were never in a relationship at all. sometimes i'm just completely ignored, or brushed off with curt answers while he talks to people who are more important than i am. did i waste a year of my life? is this friendship? everything has changed. i hate it deeper than anything.

i'm losing you and it's effortless.
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we met up outside our asian history class yesterday afternoon. he immediately struck up a conversation with me about the class and other history classes we're taking. we walked into the room together and sat down next to one another in the front row, still talking. he even kept whispering to me throughout the few minutes we spent in the class.

and of course, the whole time my heart was all fluttery. i shivered every time i looked over at him. he is pretty much gorgeous...as charming and adorable as ever.

maybe i should feel wrong about crushing on my ex, but knowing that nothing serious will ever happen between us makes it better, in a way.

omg. the pretty. it's going to be a good semester. :3
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three years ago, i would never have imagined this happening. the way we have moved past our relationship...the way i've gotten over it.

now, it's normal to just get together and start kissing. the way he pulls me in close, the way our hands lazily clasp together. it's a casual kind of thing. we kiss between sentences, smiling and making jokes and pressing our lips together as we talk. it's not love, but it's amazing being close to someone, and feeling like i'm being cared for.

i feel better about him, and about all the boys i've made out with, knowing that it's not a serious thing. we're both single, we both get lonely. i mean, what's so wrong about that?

i like it.

happy 2010! i graduate in just over 4 months oh god :x

meme thingy! post the first sentence form the first entry of each month of 2009.

january: HAPPY 2009!!!
february: note to self: update project365 later!
march: the number 1 reason i want a single next year is in the room with me right now. fml
april: they need to stop showing sonic commercials when there are none around here argh
may: WHO IS GOING TO SEE THE KILLERS AT MOHEGAN SUN THIS SATURDAY?? (i did i did! :D)
june: things are looking up. (this was before rob and i broke up...oh how wrong i was)
july: i'm back in connecticut, much to my dismay. (i miss michigan! take me back :[ )
august: "those are all very beautiful words, but actions speak louder, in case you haven't heard."
september: "mr. moran" by the mighty mighty bosstones. (in response to what was my most-played song on itunes. it still is!)
october: i think i need to post here more. (haha, yeah, that really happened O_O)
november: happy 11/11.
december: meme! (how exciting!!)


2009 had its ups and downs...a lot of downs...but you live and learn, right? bring on 2010 and all of the promise it holds to be amazing. :)

i'm 21!

=]

annnnnd i saw the mighty mighty bosstones last night, and it was the best birthday present ever! i'm not exaggerating when i say that it was probably the best concert i've ever been to. the crowd was super chill; there was no moshing like when i saw them last year, just dancing and skanking; i didn't get beat up or shoved into a barrier like last year!; ska music is just fun and happy all-around; and the bosstones are the coolest group of guys ever. the love they have for each other and for their fans is unbelievable.

yayyyy. let's go drink!!!

i hope you all had a nice christmas! i'll write an entry in a bit i promise.

who wants to listen to my music?! i'm playing stuff now and it's gonna be awesome ;)
http://live.finetune.com/listen.php?id=822842

idea obv stolen from cristi_is_here...this website is awesome!

(ho ho ho)

i just posted this over to unsentletters and thought i would share it here as well. i've been listening to my entire pink floyd discography, and i'm just reminded constantly how deeply i love this band.

is this cheesy? maybe. but is it from the heart? definitely. i love them and i want the world to know. ok awesome. :)
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dear pink floyd,

thank you for existing. for making some of the most amazing music ever created. for being there for me over the past five and a half years.

your music helped me to discover and appreciate all kinds of music. it has calmed me, it has excited me, it has tripped me out.

i wish i could express more eloquently how deeply your music has affected my life. i know i'm just another one of your many millions of fans, and i'm sure each of you has heard it many times before, but i truly love and appreciate everything you guys have contributed to music. you are all fantastic people, as well. i hope you know that.

i don't think i will ever stop listening to you guys, and i hope to someday introduce you to my own children, in hopes of inspiring them as well.

love you!
allegra

meme! taken from cristi_is_here. i think i did this about a year ago, but i think i've gotten a lot new lj friends since then...so here's a little glimpse into my lifee :)

You know how sometimes people on your friendslist post about stuff going on in their life, and all of a sudden you think "Wait a minute? Since when were they working THERE? Since when were they dating HIM/HER? Since when???" And then you wonder how you could have missed all that seemingly pretty standard information, but somehow you feel too ashamed to ask for clarification because it seems like info you should already know? It happens to all of us sometimes.

1. First name:
allegra!

2. Age:
20. i'll be 21 inless than a month, december 29th. i can't wait to legally drink alcohol! (not like i haven't been drinking for the past 3 years anyway haha. it just sucks because pretty much all of my friends are 21+ now and it's sad to not be able to drink when we go out.)

3. Location:
at school in west hartford, ct. i live in ansonia, ct the rest of the time.

4. Occupation:
student i guess...i also tutor 7th graders here at school, and when i'm home, i work at a preschool. it's a crazy job but i love it.

5. Partner:
nobody right now. i can't be in a serious relationship right now...i'm too busy and i can't do the emotional investment D: so i'm just having fun, you know.

6. Kids:
not anytime soon, thanks!

7. Brothers/Sisters:
one brother, cameron. he's 19 and we go to the same college, and it's awesome.

8. Pets:
two cats, linus and rigby. they're crazy and adorable.

9. List the 3-5 biggest things going on in your life:
mass amounts of schoolwork, keeping my grades up (i have all As and Bs so far this semester :D), thinking about graduate school (i want to get my master's in early childhood or elementary education), and trying to have a fun social life. i'm succeeding in all areas, i think haha.

10. Parents:
ralph and patti. i get along well with them most of the time and i love them dearly.

11. Who are some of your closest friends:
-lauren (laestar87), who i've known since elementary school. we are completely insane together, and we have AIM conversations that last for days, and watch random youtube videos, and go driving aimlessly and laugh about the most random things. it's lots of fun.

-bill (willbuddy). he was my first boyfriend ever, my senior year of high school, and even though we broke up we're still the best of friends :) he goes to school down at auburn, so we don't see each other much anymore, but he's a great person. he's always there for me when i need him, and he comes up with the most awesomely random things to say. love him!

-rob. he's also my ex - we were together from april 08 to june of this year when we broke up - but we're still also good friends. i've seen him like once a week this whole semester as he's really busy working and taking like 7 classes and teaching and tutoring. when we do hang out it's great though. we're so comfortable around each other and i feel like i can tell him anything. plus, he's crazy and random. notice a pattern with all of my friends in that area? haha.

sometimes i miss him so much i feel sick to my stomach...



i just want this to stop.

mass entry ahoy! happy meme:

day 5 (friday, nov. 20): STN bowling night! i got 86 points on the first game and 122 on the second, which is amazing for me. i usually get like, 60. haha. it was tons of fun with my friends =)

day 6 (saturday, nov. 21): another basketball game with pep band. we won, woooo. it's awesome how well both the men and the women are doing this early in the season...i'm not going to get my hopes up just yet, but if they keep it up, we could be headed for the NCAA tournament and a spring break trip to somewhere awesome, like louisiana in 2008. :DDD

day 7 (sunday, nov. 22): unfortunately sunday was kind of blah. sundays always seem to make me sad, idk. i was mostly excited to not have to wake up early for tutoring on monday morning.

day 8 (monday, nov. 23): a fairly relaxing day, for once. no tutoring, only 2 classes, and time to relax all afternoon. i won't be getting many more days like that this semester. (also it was my brother's 19th birthday! happy birthday cameronnn :D)

yay, happy meme. i should do it more often, or at least try and post happy things every day. we'll see how that goes.


so i'm home for thanksgiving break! :D i had absolutely NOTHING to do yesterday which was awesome. i just hung out in my room and napped a lot, and my dad picked up cameron and me around 7.

tomorrow is going to be interesting - thanksgiving dinner with the extended family at my aunt's house. i don't remember ever doing this before! my parents say we did in 1996, and i normally have a great memory for random things like that, but i can't remember it at all. it should be fun, though. my aunt, uncle, and cousins from utah who i haven't seen in probably 10 years are visiting so that will be cool.

then friday is black friday shopping with lauren (woooo) and saturday is thanksgiving at my house. so it's going to be a busy few days, but fun.

day 4 (thursday nov. 19): thursday night in the stn office...hanging out with ashley and ben and laughing about the most ridiculous things...hanging up pictures of martin luther king...sometimes it stresses me out, yeah, but stn is the best thing i could ever have become involved with in college. i love the crazy times. :)

and we have stn bowling tonight...woo wooo. should be fun! there's also a basketball game tomorrow, and i have no classes at all next tuesday! and i go home on tuesday night for what is sure to be a fun thanksgiving break :]

life's good. <3

see? i already failed at posting every day. haha oh well.

happy meme!

day 2 (tuesday nov. 17): i got an 89 on my cognitive psych exam! i barely studied which made it all the more amazing (i seriously thought i was going to get a D on it).

day 3 (wednesday nov. 18): going to the basketball game to play with pep band :). it was weird to me, because i was the person who had been there the longest, and that made me feel so out of place. i felt like the only person cheering, or screaming when the other team made a foul shot. i wanted so badly to yell the random cheers we've done in pep band in years past (like NUMBERRRRR ELEVENNNNN or YOUUUU TRAVELED! or TRAMPOLINES!!!)...but i would have felt so awkward. blah. we've got to get these newbies learning the ways of the pep band!

well that made it sound awkward and depressing, but it was still pep band, and that makes it amazing every time. :)


in not so happy news, one of my roommates has the swine. D: she said she cloroxed everything in the apartment, and she got sent home, but who knows. i'm not so worried about the severity of the flu itself. i'm just concerned because i can NOT be missing a whole week of work, classes, and stn to recuperate from this silly flu if i get it. oh well! i'll be fine, right.

i'm going to try this again, because when i tried to do it a year ago it failed. haha.

The rules are that for 8 days you have to post something that made you happy that day. Tag 8 people to do the same.

day 1:
spending time in the STN office, procrastinating on doing my history paper and laughing hysterically at all of the insanity there.

this year we really got a great group of dedicated freshmen who make everything so much more fun. one guy in particular, ben...he is hard to describe without knowing him in person, but everything he says is absolutely hilarious (completely unintentionally!). we even have a facebook group dedicated to quotes from him. this is what i love about STN, and why i'm so happy to be involved with a group of people who are just really cool people overall. :)

i tag anyone who wants to do it. happy memes are good! i need things like this whenever i'm feeling down...it makes me focus on the many positive things i have going in my life right now instead of the like, one negative thing/person. yknowww. :D

happy 11/11. may all of your (and my) wishes come true.

you guys......i am obsessed with baman piderman

WATCH IT

IT MAKES NO SENSE BUT IT IS AMAZING

i think i need to post here more. i'm fucking sick of people telling me i update my twitter too much.

i love my friends, and STN, and my new cell phone. i'm happy.

this song IS my life.

i don't want to get over you
i guess i could take a sleeping pill
and sleep at will
and not have to go through what i go through
i guess i should take prozac, right,
and just smile all night at somebody new
somebody not too bright
but sweet and kind
who would try to get you off my mind
i could leave this agony behind
which is just what i'd do if i wanted to
but i don't want to get over you.

'cause i don't want to get over love.
i could listen to my therapist,
pretend you don't exist
and not have to dream of what i dream of.
i could listen to all my friends
and go out again
and pretend it's enough.
or i could make a career of being blue
i could dress in black and read camus
smoke clove cigarettes and drink vermouth
like i was 17
that would be a scream,
but i don't want to get over you.

"mr. moran" by the mighty mighty bosstones.

i'm not too sure how that came to be...for the past 2+ years, it was always "bling (confession of a king)" by the killers. but no big deal! they're both amazing songs.



i've had a crazy 10 days at school. some of it has been really shitty, some of it has been amazing. it's good to be here.


i did not see the killers on friday night. they covered one of my other favorite bands: the cars. I COULD HAVE BEEN THERE, YOU GUYS ;_; fuuuuuuuck