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21 September 2011 @ 08:06 pm
-i got a second job tutoring at an elementary school 15 hours a week! i love it so far :)

-I GOT MY LICENSE IN AUGUST. yeah. i KNOW. :D it's crazy. i drive pretty much every day, and it's been such an amazing confidence boost. i feel like i can do absolutely anything.

-i've been hanging out a lot with steph and janelle, and hopefully will be making plans with ashley to go to hartford next month and go to the haunted graveyard again :)

-i'm seeing duran duran live in boston on october 28th!!! :D i still can't believe it, and it probably won't sink in until i'm there. i love them so, so much. ♥

it's crazy how happy i am with everything in my life right now. it's such a complete turnaround from this time last year, and i love it.
i was going to post this on tumblr, but i've gotten some new followers in the last couple of days and i don't want to be all depressing. idk. i still might. i just need to get it out somewhere.

i miss kyle.

so much.

sometimes it just hits me really hard that he's gone...out of nowhere, a random memory will pop into my head, and it almost knocks me over backwards. all of the little things that i took for granted...

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it's just that lately i feel so damn lonely when i think of you.
11 July 2011 @ 05:44 pm

look at these beautiful men. ♥
so life's not bad
my job at the historical society ends this week, then i'm off until october. :( it's been an incredible 2 months and i've learned so much and it makes me so happy to see the kids really learning and having a great time. i love this job with all of my heart and it's reignited my interest in going into education of some kind.

school? not yet. eventually. and i'm okay with that. i'm stable enough mentally after the insanity/depression of last fall and early winter to know that i'm on the right track. and it will happen. i know it will.

i applied for a job at the thrift store i've been volunteering at. i'm trying not to get my hopes up, and my mild lack of self esteem tells me that i'll screw up and won't get it...but my boss believes that i should get it pretty easily. fingers crossed.

i'm so close to getting my license. it's just a matter of going to the dmv and taking the written test and then scheduling the driving after that. i'm confident though. hell yes.

kyle's death has been weighing on my mind, and i miss him a lot. i don't think there's a day that goes by that i don't think of him.

but i've reconnected with so many people over the last month - janelle, alex, christina, rob, and more - and it's been so awesome to know that i have these incredible friends in my life.

doctor who is still the greatest tv show of all time. series 6 has been amazing. i love matt smith's doctor so much. amy/rory and doctor/TARDIS otp. ♥

so yeah. there's this band. they're called duran duran. and they have become the love of my life over the past month and a half. ♥ i love every single song of theirs that i've heard so far - musically, lyrically, it's just perfect. they're pretty much the only thing i've been listening to since april, and my life has been difficult and crazy lately, but duran duran is always there for me. the music and the band themselves never fail to cheer me up. the smile i get when i watch their music videos, or interviews with them...it feels like my face is going to break because of how wonderful they are. i hope this lasts. ♥

that's about it. allegra0.tumblr.com is where i spend most of my time now. hope you're all well. here's a picture of simon le bon being the cutest thing in existence. okay bye!

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21 January 2011 @ 10:12 pm
he still thinks enough of me to im me and actually want to talk.

i'm down with that. :)
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02 December 2010 @ 10:28 am
alright the fight with my mom finally happened
i knew it was going to come to this, just a matter of when
and it's apparent to her that i am depressed and need to see a therapist
and that i can no longer live in this house
so now she knows
and maybe now things can actually start happening

i want to die
08 November 2010 @ 09:50 pm
it's as though i get 1 to 2 years of obsession with a tv show or book before i don't even care about it anymore (or only have a passing interest in it).

harry potter, a series of unfortunate events, house, bones

i mean it's not a perfect system to gauge things off of - the pattern doesn't always have to be the same. i'm just so scared of the day i stop loving doctor who.

this show has gotten me through so much in just the last 7 months...this past summer would have been so much worse if i didn't have that show, the characters, the actors, the fandom, this entire world to slip away into. although things have gotten substantially better in my life over the last 2 months, it's still the best diversion i have while i'm stuck at home with all my friends miles and miles away. and i don't ever want to lose that.


i don't think i can ever stop liking the show...or even loving it. even if i'm not as involved in the fandom, but i'm still watching and enjoying the show, i guess that's what really matters? still idk losing a big part of my life would be sad :(

i guess the other tv shows i fell in love with just had nowhere else to go for me...and the stories just got more cliche and less interesting. but with doctor who, there will probably always be something new to discover. all of the classic serials (i've only seen a few so far), the audios, the new series which will hopefully continue for quite a few years to come. i'm crossing my fingers that this fact will always keep it fresh and interesting and therefore i can't possibly lose it.

orrrrr i should just do what i've learned how to do over the past couple years: live in the moment and enjoy it while it lasts. you know, the smart thing to do :P

hooray for being lame
27 October 2010 @ 08:34 pm
is this more than you bargained for yet?
oh, don't mind me, i'm watching you two from the closet
wishing to be the friction in your jeans
isn't it messed up how i'm just dying to be him?
i'm just a notch in your bedpost, but you're just a line in a song.

i love this song. i hate that these lyrics are so relevant to my life. :|
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once upon a time, he introduced me to really cute songs to sum up our relationship. summer 2008.

you know what i'm going to say before my mouth even makes a sound, and that's why we make a good you and me. i know from the sound of your breathing exactly what you are feeling, this is why we make a good you and me, make a good you and me, make a good you and me, you and me.

how things change. march 2010.

love me or hate me, but you wanna fuck me! my love is unrestricted, you know you wanna lick this!

o ok. good to know what you think of me, douche.

aherp derp.
02 October 2010 @ 10:15 am
soooo basically i never update this anymore! D: maybe once things get interesting in my life again (i.e. i move out/go to grad school/finally get my license) i'll get back to it. but for now, if you're so inclined to be a part of my life, follow me on twitter and tumblr!



much love <3