meme with questions from cristi_is_here!

1. Leave me a comment saying, "Interview me."
2. I will respond by asking you five questions. I get to pick the questions.
3. You will post the answers to the questions (and the questions themselves) on your blog or journal.
4. You will include this explanation and an offer to interview others in the same post.

1. What's on your mind at this very moment?
not a lot, haha - just hoping that my friend bill will come online so we can chat, and thinking about how much i love this song. "got to let go 'til the morning comes, whooaaa" <3

2. Name three things that are within your reach right now.
my cell phone, my deodorant, and my polka dot umbrella

3. Who is your favorite actor?
this kind of changes a lot based on what shows or movies i'm currently into, haha...right now, i'm going to go with emily deschanel, because she's absolutely gorgeous and is amazing as dr. brennan on bones; and will arnett, because gob bluth is hilariously sleazy, arrested development is one of the greatest shows ever, and his voice makes me hottt.

4. How many siblings do you have?
one - my little brother, cameron. he will always be my little brother, even though he's almost 19 and considerably taller than me :P

5. Where did you grow up?
the same place i live now - ansonia, connecticut. it's...okay. just okay. haha.

i'm back in connecticut, much to my dismay. i really loved michigan, and i made a bunch of new friends also from CT, and no work for 4 days omg ftw. everyone i met was so incredibly friendly, which i am not used to, coming from new england where so many people are really rude about everything. omg i want to relocate. i'm not even kidding. ilu, upper midwest.

and i know ivyleague won't agree with me, but people from michigan have the best accents ever! omg they are so cute hahaha. wisconsin accents are pretty awesome too. i'm going to work on giving myself one just because i love them.

the only thing that sucks right now is that my left ear is still completely clogged and i feel really floaty and dizzy and like i'm bobbing around in turbulence. :( i absolutely adore flying, but the aftereffects are really unpleasant. hopefully it will go away after i sleep, since i have work at 8 (blah). at least it's only a one day work week for me, since we get friday off. woo.

oh so i bought a vera bradley bag! the print is capri melon and it is SO me! i got it for 40 bucks - it was on clearance since the style is from like 2007...but idgaf about what style is popular haha. i'm not used to spending so much on a purse but i am SO happy i did. it is the cutest little tote ever.

so now it's bedtime! i will post pictures from grand rapids asap. :)

HI I LOVE MICHIGAN

AND EVERYONE HERE =)


I AM BEING CHARGED 50 CENTS PER MINUTE TO USE THIS SHITTY HOTEL COMPUTER LOLOL


LOVE YOU ALL<3

(12:10:02 AM) rob: so i didnt think tonight was awkward i think it went well. i want you to know that i do love you always and that if i seemed cold it was only because seeing you tonight was hard and i didnt want to be upset at your house
(12:10:24 AM) rob: <3

things are looking up. i have hope. we will see.
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so i kinda forgot to post about this at all but i'm going to grand rapids, michigan from tomorrow to next wednesday!!

it's for church stuff, haha...general synod, which i went to in 2007 when it was held in hartford. these are my pictures from it...i had a lot of fun!

it's basically a big church meeting with people from all over the country...there's a lot of boring stuff and voting and things i have to go to, which sucks...but i'll be with a bunch of people my own age and i know a couple of them already from silver lake. and there will be some fun stuff on saturday in the city, and i'm sure i'll find ways to enjoy myself. i'm excited! :D

i get to take two planes tomorrow. hartford to cleveland, then cleveland to grand rapids. eek. the flights aren't long - an hour and 15 minutes to ohio, then 30 minutes to grand rapids. i'm nervous but excited, you know. i'll be fine once i get in the air haha.

so yeah!! i will try and update from grand rapids, if possible. most all of you guys are following me on twitter already (@allegra0) which i'm sure i'll be using a lot. have a good week you guys! <3

happy 28th birthday
you're adorable
<3

we broke up.



but i am smiling through my tears.


best friends.



i love him. always.

(11:44:48 PM) rob: bun! i dont know if your there or sleeping but i hope all is well with you! =) I'm going home tomorrow after work until sunday. Can we talk at some point?


little things that make me happy. =)


i really hope today is fairly stress-free at work.... :\

wow.....i am almost exactly the same person i was nearly three years ago.

i wonder if that's a good or a bad thing.

it's funny, i'm reading the entries i wrote after bill and i broke up...and how i was so crushed, but hopeful, and so happy that we were still friends

i wonder...can i feel that way with rob? is this how it would turn out if we broke up?
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so my coping strategy is this: i don't think about him. it's easier that way.

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i'll post the photo meme results soon. i need sleep. i worked with some absolute brats today. it was torture. i get to work in the same classroom thursday and friday, GREAT.


jfc i love this song. DON'T H8. flo rida is damn catchy. :D

i had never been so certain about something that i wanted in my life, until rob.

i want to spend my life with him...

how do i reconcile with the fact that there's a good chance we're not meant to be?

i'm so scared to live without him.



so many goddamn tears and not a single one will change anything.

Ask me up to five different things you'd like me to take a picture of and post. It can be my favorite pair of socks, my cat, anything you're curious about.

do it!!!

it's a weird feeling, knowing that the most amazing thing in your life is close to ending.

we're still together, but i'm completely shattered. i'm so close to losing his love.

i don't know why his feelings changed. he doesn't know himself.

we're giving each other some space, so to speak. talking less.

we're both hoping things will change for the better. that his feelings will come back. that something will be rekindled.

at least we both still want to work things out, and are willing to try.


all day today i will have to force myself not to cry. awesome.


it's odd to feel so numb, yet feel so much emotion all at once. i don't know how to handle this.


only time will tell.

...it's ever so quiet counting down.

we can work it out.





i will do anything.

the new york philharmonic = amazing.

rob = amazing.

writing out my feelings, thoughts, problems and solutions = amazing.

my friends = amazing.

my preschoolers = amazing...usually.


i am doing whatever i can to feel better this summer...and it's slowly but surely working. i can and will keep it up.

god i am so lame haha...but i am happy =)

i'm seeing rob in less than 24 hours. SO STOKED :D i'm gonna dress up all cute (in a skirt!) and meet up with him and his mommy in NYC and we're seeing the new york philharmonic at lincoln center, and then i'm spending the night at his house. i can't wait =)

so i survived my first week of preschool! nothing major happened and my days were surprisingly easy. i really, really love kids and the idea of going for my master's in early childhood education sounds better every day. who knows where things will progress to...but i really believe that working with children in some capacity is what i am meant for.

i'm happy lately! and i hope you're all doing well, too. :D

things are looking up.

5 days until rob :).

i got my job back! yayyy. it's not like i was expecting not to, because everyone i work with absolutely loves me, but it feels good to have it set in stone. i'll be working monday through friday, 8:30 to 5. that's an extra half hour than i did last summer, which means that i can take either an hour or a half hour for lunch every day :D pretty exciting. i can't wait to see all of my chilluns again! well, the ones that behave, anyway -_-

i'm actually going in today to cover lunch breaks for people from 12:30 to 2:30...and i'm actually looking forward to it haha. i shouldn't have to do anything with the kids, since it's during their naptime. hopefully this will get me back into the swing of things so i'm not completely lost on monday morning.

it's so cold and gross out. :( it's misty and foggy and not even 60 degrees. i've had to use so many blankets when i go to bed that it feels like i'm home for the winter and not the summer.

that's about all...9 days until rob :)

so i'm home. i've been here since last sunday. i miss rob, and i miss school, but i'm rather enjoying not having anything to do, though i'm sure that will change in the next few days.

i called work yesterday and left a message with one of my bosses, but she was in a meeting and didn't get back to me. i don't really mind - more time to relax! but i'll call again on tuesday and hopefully start working next week.

working at commencement last sunday was pretty sad. seeing all of my friends who graduated and realizing that i'm now a senior in college...i was on the verge of tears all day. :( i worked in the information tent with a girl i've had a few classes with, melanie, and we got to hand out programs and direct people, including many graduates. the ceremony started at 10:30, and at 10:45 we were still getting students asking where they could get their cap and gown D: the day was made worse by the fact that it was like 40 degrees and windy and everyone was freezing their butts off.

it's so unreal that i'm a senior. it seems like it was just yesterday that i was finishing my senior year of high school, going to orientation and getting amped up for college...and now it's almost over. WTF GUYS :'( yeah i know i still have a whole year left, and i'm probably going to grad school after i'm done, but still. ughhh my lifeeee :(

though, on a happier note, i got a 3.53 GPA this semester, and i now have a 3.05 overall. :D :D it's amazing how much i've changed as a person in the last year - i can't believe it myself. it really makes me feel good to know that i've come a long way, and i'm sure that it's not going to stop :)

14 days until i see rob!

woot

okay. so. i finally got around to writing about my experience seeing the killers last saturday! i will warn you now...it is long. it is just over 3 pages long in word, single spaced. i went through my thoughts and emotions about each song they played. if you read all of this, god bless you. for real. it's mostly just for me to remember everything. i hope you enjoy :D

( Part 1: A small CTK meetup, dinner, pre-show. )

( Part 2: 'A night of celebration!' )

( Part 3: Post-show adventures. )

It was an incredible night of music, boylove, and friends, even though I didn't meet the guys. It's okay. That's on my to-do list for next time. :)

the killers are epic. i'm still trying to process everything and i feel like the concert was all a perfect dream.

cleanseoursouls and alightinthadark and their friends are absolute sweethearts and so much fun to hang out with.

i didn't get back to my room until 9:30 this morning, and i just slept until 4:30. and i would do it all over again. :D

I'M SEEING THE KILLERS IN LESS THAN 24 HOURS AHHH <3


laura and kristen: when are you guys getting to the casino?? i have no idea what time to get there haha